I'M BACK....Where have you been?

First off I want to say a HUGE THANK YOU to those of you that have messaged me to check up on me over the past 2 months while I have been on a break. It means a lot to know that people care & are concerned. People have been asking "Where are you? Where have you been?" 2019 has been a quite a year and to be perfectly honest I'VE BEEN IN A PIT! At the beginning of 2019 God told me that it was my year of learning & growth. Well I wish I knew what that really meant. It meant I was going to be put in the PIT or as God put it politely this morning I was purposely placed aside so that I could discover myself & those in my world. The PIT is not for the faint of heart I will tell you that. It's lonely, dark & frustrating. It's just you and your emotions, thoughts, demons and any knowledge you have gained in your life. God is there with you but He limits Himself in giving wisdom until after you have learned something. Then he shows you why you went thru it.

In the PIT I experienced frustration, anger, fear, worry, depression, anxiety, my deepest darkest torments, tests & temptations. But with all of this has come the growth & learning that God said I would encounter. Through out my year in the PIT I have learned TONS about myself, my needs, my wants & my must haves. I have learned that it's not selfish to think about me & that it's actually a necessity for my health.

I think I've gain more knowledge in this 1 year in the PIT than I have in my entire life. The PIT brought me closure on some things that I've been dragging around my whole life. It has shown me things that have been hidden inside of me for a long time. Sure to the world I have a smile on my face and laugh loudly but behind all that has been the deep dark PIT & the smile and laughs are to keep people from asking or questioning.

The PIT was not all for me though, it was to teach me not only about myself but about others & to give me first hand experience of what people are going thru so that I can relate to them & their struggles. God has called me not to this earth just so I can live MY best life but so that I can help & love others as He would. So as much as I HATED being in the PIT I understand it & it's purpose. Not that understanding it made it any easier to endure. But I can now say I have walked in your shoes when called upon to help people with their struggles.

So to answer the question of Where have you been......I've been in the PIT but I AM OUT & I AM BACK & I AM BETTER THAN EVER!!

2020 is a Fresh Start! Whether you are starting something over or starting something completely new I pray that you do it boldly, without fear or worry. I pray that you would face it head on & conquer whatever it is in this new year. May 2020 be your BEST YEAR EVER!!

Many Blessings to you.